Peace and confusion.

i'm finding my peace. and forgiving myself for those things i've never done.

willy tea taylor 
"cattleman"


I love this quote. I just wish this was true for me. Life is such a rollercoaster. So many ups and downs, back and forths...I wish I could just keep myself consistent. Happy as ever (am I or was I just convincing myself?) and really believing i'm finding peace. Really forgiving myself. Then all of a sudden I feel back to square one again. I feel vulnerable and confused. Am I just having a bad day/week or is this legit? Am I supposed to listen to my gut or is this just a moment of weakness that will soon pass? I have to ask myself these questions a lot lately. I envy those who are that in tune with their emotions and really know who they are and what they want.

There's so many things I miss, so many things I wish I had done differently. Isn't it funny how you can look back and forget all the bad? All of a sudden things were great, things could have been fixed with a snap of a finger. 

Like I said, vulnerable and confused.

So once again, i'll wait it out and see where that gets me. I'll find peace. I'll rid of my regrets. I'll get there, one day. 

Stars.

 

The type of thing that makes your chest tight and your heart hurt.

Details in the Fabric

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All I want is to breathe....take a deep breath, really breathe, and let it all go...

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Amen.

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Puppy Love

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Pomeranian Husky...

I need her. Yes, I have decided it's a her because I've also decided she is Bentley's soul mate.

Puppy lovers.

One day, Bentley, one day.

On a serious note though...how INCREDIBLY cute is this dog?!

The Little Things

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I grew up in a super small town, Overton, NV. There wasn't much to it but "downtown" there was an ice cream shop/deli called Inside Scoop. I have sooo many memories of me and my dad going down there. My dad was in a wheelchair my entire childhood so running errands with just me and him wasn't too easy when I was too small to unload his wheelchair. We would drive up to the front of Inside Scoop and the owners were kind enough to bring our food and ice cream out to the car. Those are the perks of living in a small town :) We would also go there after our day trips to Lake Mead, my cousins would come down from Vegas and it was a fun family function! Anyway, most of us kids would almost ALWAYS order bubble gum ice cream, so good! I'd always spit out all of the bubble gums into a cup then eat them all at once when I was done. Eeew, kids! The only kind of bubble gum ice cream I like to this day is Dreyers! I still go to Inside Scoop when i'm in town but I guess i've graduated to getting Black Cherry Vanilla every time now, the bubble gums are too much of a hassle! I just love memories I have from my dad, no matter how small they are, it's the little things that matter :)